This is going to be rambling. Crazy rambling so you have been warned. Dont read any further if you fear for your sanity and I do for yours at the moment.. You think you have it sorted that you've got a job,right? It makes things easier..you're able to be independent..blah blah..well, its just worse...it's like this hornet's nest and being the youngest there doesnt really help your case..Everybody's watching you and everything is forced. Forced enthusiasm. Forced work ethic. Forced sitting-in-one-place-when-you're-butt-damn-well-hurts! Dont get me wrong..I love my job..It's great considering I'm under training so there's no pressure yet.. but holy christ! when there are just two men around and 40 women, there's hardly an escape..
I have no social life whatsoever. Not that I ever did. But atleast there was time enough for that to happen. During the one hour break time all I have to listen to are women trying to find appropriate husbands and married woman talking about their inappropriate husbands. It gets confusing at one point but you cant really block it out because they sometimes pop a question asking for your opinion. Yes,I'm 20 years old and I know exactly what its like to have my parents poke and prod me about a husband. Gah! All my parents are relieved about is that there are only two men in the office so that leaves what?..no room for me. But of course,I somehow have to find a damn Scorpio to lure me out of such a small sample size. Cause I'm a stickler for the secretive type. A stickler for anyone that's a challenge. And boy oh boy this guy was! He was the most reclusive and perfect voiced scorpion ever. Of course, I got unceremoniously dumped on my ass when I realised he had the hots for the girl sitting next to me. Yes,my luck just keeps getting better. So now I have to deal with him giving her these gooey eyed looks(which were intense hypnotic stares before I knew he liked her) and clamp my mouth shut to stop myself from telling him to go make himself happy somewhere else! Yes,I have to deal with two years of that. Yea, I know what you're going to say..I'll get someone else by then? I'd like to believe I'll meet a distraction but hey..when you're stuck in that hell hole of women, there's a high chance of me swinging the other way rather than getting someone..The only action I get the whole day is when I enter the bus on my way back..
I know several women suffering from 'wanting men they cant have' and not wanting the men you can have..
I sympathize. Truly.
But there's just no fun in going out with someone who doesnt show the slightest resistance. The one who needs to talk to you everyday..my colleagues have guys who call them to ask if they've reached safely..
Next call. Have you had lunch?
Next call. What are you wearing today?I was just wondering if we were color co-ordinated like that day.
Next call. You're sure you arent lying about there being only two guys in your firm right?
Next call. How's work going? I'm bored.
Next call. Wanna meet?I get off early today. We can talk about the day.
COME ON FOR CHRISSAKE!
And they call me abnormal!
I look at my phone and I have 4-5 pitiful messages from airtel and one message from my beloved uncle. Sometimes when my dad tells me to DND the phone company's text messages,I refuse. Atleast I look busy deleting them.Pitiful, but I prefer being pathetic far more than listening to incessant questions about how every second of my day is.
I'm really having the time of my life.
The whole point of this blog is to..
complain..
whine..
Vent.
So dont read this.
